about me

⇑ this is me hello ⇑

name: debra

alias: bigtub

age: 21!!!!

pronouns: she/they (or whatever is funnier for the bit)

orientation: lesbian

brain: autism & anxiety

relationship: no gf 😔

currently feeling:

welcome to my website. i created it bc making it is so fun and i have a lot of things to express about myself!! i really like the style of the old internet so i wanted to kinda emulate that.

selection of buttons (view all of them here)

general things i like

vocaloid/vocal synth mascots
garfield
sonic
keith haring art
mephis design/skateland carpet
mid centry modern (architecture/furniture & design)
scott pilgrim comics

shows i like

community
futurama
star trek deep space nine (not currently)
house md
good omens
scott pilgrim takes off
my brother, my brother, and me
mlp:fim (not currently)
last week tonight
rise of the tmnt (not currently)
star trek the original series (not currently)
danny phantom (not currently)
grimm (not currently)
bbc merlin (not currently)

youtubers i watch

adamantditto
rtgame
cybershell
novympia
realcivilengineer
oddheader
dollightful
moonlight jewel
shroudedhand
lazymasquerade
kyotorobato
blameitonjorge
dontlookatme
shaii valley
kylie boggly
sweguin
solo travel japan
solo solo travel
chateau de theil
tantacrul
bobbybroccoli
trey the explainer
hochelega
jay foreman
steve mould
signore galilei/let's explore

games i like

sonic
animal crossing (playing new horizons rn)
sims 3
earthbound (never played but i've seen playthroughs and enjoy the fandom)
ace attourney (also never played but seen playthroughs and enjoy the fandom)
projectdiva/vocaloid
honorable mention: ffvii bc i rewatch the same playthrough every year for like 6 years

more about games

i'm not much of a gamer girl. i just recently played through the entirety of sonic mania for the first time. i think its the first like console game i've ever beaten. wait i beat the scott pilgrim game once.

but i play project diva megamix with the eden project mod and i'd say im pretty good (i have a couple perfects in extreme but mostly i play in hard mode ) my bestie got me into sims 3 so i uninstalled sims 4 bc the gameplay sucked ass

movies i like

heathers (1988)
the wall (1982)
clueless (1995)
star trek iv: the voyage home (1986)

more about movies

i don't really watch movies.

i really like the pink floyd's the wall (1982) movie and the gerald scharfe animation in it (this album is really the only pink floyd i listen to or have ever heard. that album and "wot's the deal").

in the summer (2023) i found fritz the cat (1972) and the nine lives of fritz the cat (1974). they were very strange. but i think i liked them because they were so strange. also i saw heavy metal (1981) and it was interesting also.

i also saw felidae (1994) in 4th grade and i find that movie interesting as well. of all the adult animated films i've seen, i think i genuinley enjoy the wall and i only like the other ones because they are so bizzare.

update 7/2024; i have a list of movies i want to watch. so far i've seen an american werewolf in london (1981) and i enjoyed watching it because it was so bizzare. i have more on my list and i think i will see clue (1985) next.

things i am against

i was going to just write everything on this page but it got to be too long.

(right now it's wip)

read about what i don't like here

graphic design is my passion

i'm a ux major and i go to an engineering school ama

how many of y'all have never heard of ux/user experience. i explain more on this page.

funnyman

i was voted class clown in highschool

i'm a bit of a jokester. a comic. slightly amusing. silly goofy. :P

haters might say it's an autism masking technique or a result of being fat and needing to have something to get people to like me

music i like

i'm usually listening to siriusxm channel 33 1st wave. this is a more recent development. otherwise i'm listening to spotify. i have 97 playlists but i really only listen to a few with any regularity.

i also like listening to 70s-80s-90s japanese pop and funk sometimes. whatever the new j channel plays is good. also i love pink lady.

some fav artists

los campesinos!
tom robinson band
new order
say anything
thomas dolby
tom lehrer
they might be giants
weird al
billy cobb
the mountain goats
devo
talking heads
peter gabriel

songs on repeat atm:

"my old school" - steely dan
"break it down again" - tff
"kiss off" - violent femmes
"a psychic wound" - los camp!
"d>e>a>t>h>m>e>t>a>l" - panchiko

my spotify

i listen to this playlist the most but use it to get to my accnt

art

i used to draw all the time. i drew on paper and on the computer all the time in elementary-beginning of high school. i did more drawing on paper near the end of highschool and now i like rarely do either in college. recently i've made 3 year old pencil drawings into pixel drawings so there's that.

occasionally i'll do digial drawings based on pencil drawings i do. i also draw ponies and color them in on my ipad sometimes purley because they are fun to draw and i like bright colors.

sometimes i paint something i like, just copying an image and painting it on a canvas. other than that i don't do any full color physical art anymore.

view some of my art here.

meet my cats

lots of cat photos. click on the cat at the piano to go there

(wip atm)

scene

some of my first concious memories searching online by myself resulted in me finding sparkledogs, who were often scene. i thought this was cool, so i a lot of my early years i leaned more that way, into scene and emo and such. i drifted away from that for a bit but now i find it all very charming.