about me
⇑ this is me hello ⇑
name: debra
alias: bigtub
age: 22
pronouns: she/they (or whatever is funnier for the bit)
orientation: lesbian
brain: autism & anxiety
relationship: no gf 😔
currently feeling:
welcome to my website. i created it bc making it is so fun and i have a lot of things to express about myself!! i really like the style of the old internet so i wanted to kinda emulate that.
selection of buttons (view all of them here)
general things i like
- vocaloid/vocal synth mascots
- garfield
- sonic
- keith haring art
- mephis design/skateland carpet
- mid centry modern (architecture/furniture & design)
- scott pilgrim comics
- oranges (the fruit) (also other citrus fruits but oranges are far above lemons and limes)
- cats i guess goes in this list
shows i like
- community (not currently)
- futurama (not currently)
- star trek deep space nine
- house md
- good omens (not currently, maybe not anymore)
- scott pilgrim takes off (not currently, still love me some scott)
- my brother, my brother, and me (not currently)
- mlp:fim
- last week tonight (not currently)
- rise of the tmnt (not currently, probably not anymore)
- star trek the original series (not currently, not really)
- danny phantom (not currently, probbably not anymore)
- grimm (not currently, not really)
- bbc merlin (not currently, not really)
youtubers i watch
- adamantditto
- rtgame
- cybershell
- novympia
- dollightful
- moonlight jewel
- shroudedhand
- lazymasquerade
- blameitonjorge
- dontlookatme
- shaii valley
- kylie boggly
- sweguin
- chateau de theil
- tantacrul
- bobbybroccoli
- trey the explainer
- hochelega
- jay foreman
- does UNHhhh go here?
games i like
- sonic
- animal crossing
- sims 3
- earthbound (never played but i've seen playthroughs and enjoy the fandom)
- ace attourney (also never played but seen playthroughs and enjoy the fandom)
- projectdiva/vocaloid
- idk mahjong or smth
- honorable mention: ffvii bc i rewatch the same playthrough every year for like 8 years
- kirby triple deluxe
more about games
i'm not much of a gamer girl. i just recently played through the entirety of sonic mania for the first time. i think its the first like console game i've ever beaten. wait i beat the scott pilgrim game once.
but i play project diva megamix with the eden project mod and i'd say im pretty good (i have a couple perfects in extreme but mostly i play in hard mode ) my bestie got me into sims 3 so i uninstalled sims 4 bc the gameplay sucked ass
recently played some kirby triple deluxe on citra (almost beat the game as kirby) and also got through great cave offensive in kirby super star ultra on a ds emulator on my phone. idk why milky way wishes and the meta knight games aren't available... will have to look into that.
movies i like
- heathers (1988)
- the wall (1982)
- clueless (1995)
- star trek iv: the voyage home (1986)
- headwig and the angry inch (2001)
more about movies
i don't really watch movies.
i really like the pink floyd's the wall (1982) movie and the gerald scharfe animation in it (this album is really the only pink floyd i listen to or have ever heard. that album and "wot's the deal").
in the summer (2023) i found fritz the cat (1972) and the nine lives of fritz the cat (1974). they were very strange. but i think i liked them because they were so strange. also i saw heavy metal (1981) and it was interesting also.
i also saw felidae (1994) in 4th grade and i find that movie interesting as well. of all the adult animated films i've seen, i think i genuinley enjoy the wall and i only like the other ones because they are so bizzare.
update 7/2024; i have a list of movies i want to watch. so far i've seen an american werewolf in london (1981) and i enjoyed watching it because it was so bizzare. i have more on my list and i think i will see clue (1985) next.
update 7/2025; i saw clue after posting that ^. other things i ended up watching becuase the guys at work keep telling me to and i either don't care for them or i activley disliked them. like war of the roses. so dumb did not like that. nor did i like sleeping with the enemy. i have to watch goonies next. but one of them did say to watch the trekkies documentary.
also saw little shop of horrors. i love just really strange stuff don't i. i also watched animal house (becuase it's a "clasic" (????) and didn't like it) and fast times at ridgemont high and also didn't like that either. idk what, but i couldn't really relate to anything any of the characters were going through with the whole time different and all and the differet expecations and technologies and stuff but also that i had few friends and my autistic ass was oblivious to any of that other drama going on during highschool.
also saw the first bridget jones' diary. becuase novympia references it sometimes. thats also why i watched hedwig and the angry inch. and i enjoyed watching those also maybe becuase I chose to watch them as oppposed to two gen X men tell me to watch this "classic" movie that's "amazing." whatever.
graphic design is my passion
i'm a ux major and i go to an engineering school ama
how many of y'all have never heard of ux/user experience. i explain more on this page.
funnyman
i was voted class clown in highschool
i'm a bit of a jokester. a comic. slightly amusing. silly goofy. :P
haters might say it's an autism masking technique or a result of being fat and needing to have something to get people to like me
music i like
i'm usually listening to siriusxm channel 33 1st wave. this is a more recent development. otherwise i'm listening to spotify. i have 97 playlists but i really only listen to a few with any regularity.
i also like listening to 70s-80s-90s japanese pop and funk sometimes. whatever the new j channel plays is good. also i love pink lady.
some fav artists
- los campesinos!
- tom robinson band
- new order
- say anything
- thomas dolby
- tom lehrer
- they might be giants
- weird al
- billy cobb
- the mountain goats
- devo
- talking heads
- peter gabriel
songs on repeat atm:
- "my old school" - steely dan
- "break it down again" - tff
- "kiss off" - violent femmes
- "a psychic wound" - los camp!
- "d>e>a>t>h>m>e>t>a>l" - panchiko
my spotify
i listen to this playlist the most but use it to get to my accnt
art
i used to draw all the time. i drew on paper and on the computer all the time in elementary-beginning of high school. i did more drawing on paper near the end of highschool and now i like rarely do either in college. recently i've made 3 year old pencil drawings into pixel drawings so there's that.
occasionally i'll do digial drawings based on pencil drawings i do. i also draw ponies and color them in on my ipad sometimes purley because they are fun to draw and i like bright colors.
sometimes i paint something i like, just copying an image and painting it on a canvas. other than that i don't do any full color physical art anymore.
view some of my art here.
meet my cats
lots of cat photos. click on the cat at the piano to go there
(wip atm)
click here to go to the page about my cats
scene
some of my first concious memories searching online by myself resulted in me finding sparkledogs, who were often scene. i thought this was cool, so i a lot of my early years i leaned more that way, into scene and emo and such. i drifted away from that for a bit but now i find it all very charming.
things i am against
i was going to just write everything on this page but it got to be too long.
(right now it's wip) update 7/2025 man i haven't worked on this in a while huh
read about what i don't like here