I first invited Maggie to folk fair last Thursday, and she said she’d think about it but was not feeling great because her beloved cat is nearing the end. I understand, I mean, if something was happening to Brown I would stop whatever I was doing to go be with him. At first I was worried about how best to respond and support her, but I kept my response to just “I understand” and then tried to keep my texting to how I normally do. That’s what I could remember from my Death, Dying, and Grief class, anyway.

I finally finished the drawing I made of us in Garfield and Hello Kitty pajamas, and she loved it and asked me to make a sparkly gif of it. Then on Friday she asked what days Folk Fair was, and I said Friday 2-9, Sat 10-9, Sun 10-6. Then on Saturday I waited until the middle of the day to ask her what her thoughts were and she said “tomorrow,” so then I made the plan that I was going to wait until 3 or 3:30 and then I was leaving either with her or not.

So on Sunday I went in to Goddess in the morning because I saw Maggie was working, so I brought my embroidery and sat and had a bagel, and I told Maggie my plans about leaving at 3 or 3:30 and she said Ok. i leave Goddess at like 10 or 11 or something and I laze about until 3 and I ask for an update and she says “no I’m sorry” and basically feeling bad about not going so I tell her “I understand, that’s why I asked ahead of time so I could plan/ Don’t feel bad about it or like a flake because I don’t see it that way.” and she gave it a heart react.

So I drive over there and I get there at 3:45 and I stop and get a bunch of cookies from the Donauschwaben cookie place, then I get a mango lassi (tradition), then I get a crepe (tradition… the butter brown sugar), and I actually tried an eggroll. I asked this thai place if their eggrolls had glass noodles and they said no, so I asked this Viet place and they said yes. And they are at my city’s farmers market! They are one of the tents, so I might have to go at least once next spring. Normally my heart and soul belong to the Lee’s Kitchen trailer, but I will try them at least once. (Every Saturday that the farmer’s market is open I get eggrolls from Lee’s Kitchen).

I go and watch some of some performance in the main stage, but then I go and look at the shops because I wanted to make sure I saw everything before they closed. I was looking for something to get for Maggie because she couldn’t come, and I found a couple of good contenders at this one place, and some absurdly expensive amber pieces from this one booth, and then more reasonable amber pieces from another booth, so I found a heart pendant that is about the same color and pattern as Mr. Jones’ eyes (the cat). I walked past the other tradition booths, and walked even faster past the craft booths, also I am just now realizing that I completely missed voting for a bonsai tree...

I then went in and watched the end of the closing ceremony, and it was good. I enjoy watching dance performances and I love seeing the different traditional/historical costume that gets worn, my absolute favorite I think is the Mexican group. I can’t remember the song they danced to but it was described as “Mexico’s second national anthem,” and it was a large group with men and women, and the women were wearing brightly colored dresses with HUGE skirts that they were holding in both hands and they twirled with them, it was so fun to watch. The final performance was by a guest group (Lublin I believe) and they were like professional dancers and they had a band/orchestra also, so that was even better.

Oh I remember when I was waiting for my crepe to cool and eating my crepe, this guy who was there with his daughter and the daughter was a part of some dance group, and the mom was somewhere else, and he was complaining loudly about stuff, and then he went away, and then two other girls from the same dance group sat down with some other family member (idk who) and then the guy starts bitching about how he hadn’t ordered food yet because he was supposed to wait and now they get to eat food and he was cussing too, so thankfully I was done eating because this guy was starting off my time really awful. But then I had the eggrolls and life was good again.

On Monday I actually got some work done at home. I was wanting to go in, but I wanted to sleep in so badddd… But I actually got some work in. Then Maggie invited me over to say goodbye to Mr. Jones (she had mentioned it on Sunday), so I was trying to communicate to her that I’d only come over if she wanted me there, and she said that I “deserve” to say goodbye, but I wasn’t going to argue with her about this so I just went over. I got to pet him and kiss his handsome little head and thank him for taking care of Maggie. She was having a hard time so I offered a hug (I’m not about hugs usually, but I can at least offer one) but we squeezed hands, and I thought in that moment of things I could say, like “I’m so sorry” or something, but I just said nothing because I think that would be the most helpful thing to do, just be there. But I did say before I left to love him extra hard for me.

I was going to write this post yesterday after I left Maggie’s house, but I was suddenly tired so I just laid in bed. I was thinking about playing Animal Crossing also, but I was enjoying watching stuff so I didn’t, but I still kind of felt bad about not playing.

This morning (Tuesday) I almost let the demons win (sleep in) but I got up and got my brekkie from the gas station and was on my way. It was weirdly foggy and in the dark at 6:20 when I was driving to work, and then I was feeling like I could just go back home and go to sleep. Normally I start eating my sandwich right when I pull out of the parking lot of the gas station and I finish it a bit before or a bit after I get on the freeway, but today I only started eating halfway between the Brookfield exit and the Zoo interchange.

I did the security training for work, and I wish instead of videos they just had the transcript because it felt like I was wasting time (all my required trainings took 1hr15 together) but at least there were captions and I could listen to music instead of whatever awful audio they picked. The newest training they had was GenAI “hallucinations” and of course the best character design, the pink hair miku intern for a pop star with a cute outfit, of course she has to rely on a stupid chatbot to think for her and it gets her fired. Gotdamn.

Anyway I got a lot done at work today and I even started on the client documentation for this feature, so I might actually be able to get them all done by when I’m done tomorrow, so then my coworker can review them on Friday or just abouts, so then it can be completed by the deadline he set (Monday the 1st). I didn’t mean to come so close to the deadline again (I did this with the last project) but I did literally nothing all of last week because I was focused on taking care of Gramma. I feel okay about it because I had my monthly one on one with my supervisor/boss and we talked about it.

I do have my eye appointment tomorrow. The one that got rescheduled. I really need it too, because I have a dark spot in my left eye, my right eye I feel like probably has a spot too but it’s not dark. The blurriness is really apparent when I’m looking at my tablet at nighttime. Also a couple times when I was reading on my tablet at night the background was flashing between the normal shade of gray and a shade a bit lighter. Like it was flashing slowly, and then it kept flashing…

And I kind of have this, phosphor burn-in like ghost sometimes when I look at something bright next to something dark? I always feel like lights are extra bright for me but specifically at work maybe last week I was reading white text on a black background and it was creating these lines that would stay even when I closed my eyes (this happens sometimes when I had something bright in my eye, where I can still see the silhouette of the bright thing when I close my eyes. And idk it gets blurry and I have to work to focus on stuff? I really hope that I can get more shots and get this fixed.

I hope I’m not putting this into the universe, but the specialty pharmacy better have delivered the damn medication to the new office or I swan to jon if I don’t get shots tomorrow I will go banana style on everybody. Idk what I’m talking about anymore.

I know there’s no rush on this but I wanted to play AC after I wrote this but I just don’t want to. Like I want to, but I also don’t want to. Nothing bad will happen while I’m away, and I don’t have to feel awful about not getting the most money from fossils or getting all the mushrooms or being the most efficient at watering hybrid flowers or whatever. I can just play tomorrow.

Also I recently got green mums for the first time! Still working on blue and gold roses, but I think those are the only two left I need! I just started watering some black roses with a golden watering can a couple days ago.

I had a big lunch at around noon-noon:45 and I don’t want dinner, but I kind of want another vanilla shake. Normally I prefer chocolate anything, but the vanilla shake from Cousin’s is really good. And I don’t feel like putting in emotes this time, so hopefully they aren’t too sorely missed (as if anyone is fucking reading these things)

• Mood: Good I guess
• Listening to: She's a Big Boy - Mcbase
• Reading: Some miscellaneous fanfics in my bookmarks
• Watching: Some Steven Universe episodes because I was randomly reccomended some clip compilations recently
• Playing: (not much of) ACNH
• Eating: hongre - might have banilla shake
• Drinking: Icewater